A great love story



If I never knew love before you, then I never knew sadness until you left me. 

"What's wrong with me?" I whisper for the 100th time today. 

There's never a good answer. Just the beating of my heart and the slow ache that tells me you're nowhere to be found. I've never felt this way about anything or anyone. 

I didn't know I could love again. That was a wonderful discovery. You tapped into something so deep in me, I can't even explain. You required honesty. You wanted the truth. You made me love you when you asked those things of me. Love flowed from an undiscovered source. You found this in me, and I gave it to you. 

When you left me in silence, no amount of words could bring you back. And I knew I was in trouble when I would wake in the night and the ache in my chest was more than just real. It was killing me. I expected you to fade, but you did not. You became stronger and more resilient in my heart. I couldn't silence your voice in my head, your whisper in my ears, your hair on my shoulder, your perfume on the sheets, the way your eyes said hello. 

Every time I think I have to say goodbye, my whole being revolts. 

I was wrong about you. I didn't think you'd hurt me like this. But, I'm glad you did. Now I see the depth that I loved you. I feel how far I reached out to you. I know how much I gave you. And it was beautiful. You are the only girl in the world I could thank for breaking my heart. It was a perfect pain, losing you. 

I'm not sorry for wagering so heavily on you. I wish the outcome had been different, but you were worth every drop of blood I shed, every tear I cried, every hollow day I endured. Even a mediocre writer could write a great love story about you. I'll be looking over his shoulder, making sure he gets the details right. The light on your hair, your squinting eyes as the wind blew, your skin so taut and tender, your words so soft, your laughter so unrehearsed, your lips tracing my earlobes, and the moment you pulled yourself together and drove away from me.

You gave me the perfect ending. The perfect ending to a perfect love story.

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