Just another girl


Just Another Girl by The Killers. This was released in November 2013, almost exactly 5 years ago. The video is a sort of retrospective, combining elements from past The Killers videos. It's an odd video mostly for that reason. And I don't get the concept of the girl in place of Brandon Flowers, unless they're trying to say she kind of took over his mind and then his body. Playing with gender is pretty trendy right now. I guess it doesn't matter. The song is saying it's impossible to move on when you want only one girl. I can understand the sentiment. 

I think a lot of people have a hard time moving on after they set their heart on someone. You wake up every morning with that person as the first thing on your mind, and you go to bed with them still in your head. It's like they live there more than you do. 

 It's been almost two years since she came back into my life. It was innocent at first, but then I started to overstep. There was something about her that I just never got over the first time. There were things we needed to talk about, sure, but there was also that thing that needed to come out, that needed to be said. I still had feelings for her, clearly. And, you know what? I missed her. I'm particular about the people in my life. Most I keep at a distance. I've lived my life pretty isolated because I'm an odd duck and I don't need many people in my life. She's one I've always wanted to keep close, though.

The second time around, she dug into me even further. She went right to my core without anything stopping her. I don't know; maybe she never left. I've been unable to imagine my life without her ever since. I think we all have that one person we've given everything to.  There's that one person who gets you to believe in magic again. 

 When the song says, "All of my friends say I should move on," I think to myself, well, that would be perfect if I had friends. Maybe I can count all the voices I hear in my head. Well, all of "my friends" are silent now. They've come over to my side, and they agree she's worth loving, even if she's not mine. Some people are like that, which is something no one ever tells you.  

 Most people think of a breakup as being temporary, a necessary evil until you can move on. For most people, it is temporary. Until I'm blue in the face, I'll keep saying this one is different. She's not just another girl. 

We're supposed to believe in the love story where they end up together. It sounds nice. Perfect, even. Love doesn't always lead people together. Sometimes one is left standing there wondering what the hell happened. And everyone says that person should move on. Well, don't listen to those people. Move on if you want to. If you don't, then don't. I'll be standing right beside you. 


 Lyrics:

 Step out into the Indian dust
I can feel the cracks in my spirit
They're starting to bust
Drive by your house, nobody's home
I'm trying to tell myself that I'm better off alone
All of my friends say I should move on
She's just another girl, don't let her stick it to your heart so hard
And of all my friends say it wasn't meant to be
And it's a great big world, she's just another girl
I went to see a fortuneteller, that was a trip
Maybe this confusion's got me losing my grip
I can't believe you're out there flying with somebody else
Now Jason's getting married in the blink of an eye
I got an invitation but I didn't reply
Tell your little brother that we put down the gloves
And give him all of my love
All of my friends say I should move on
She's just another girl, don't let her stick it to your heart so hard
And all of my friends say it wasn't meant to be
And it's a great big world, she's just another girl
I could be reeling them in left and right
Something's got a hold on me, tonight
Well maybe all of my friends should confront
The fact that I don't want another girl
All of my friends say I should move on
All of my friends say
She's just another girl
Then why can't I sleep at night
And why don't the moon look right
The sounds up, the TV's on
And it's a great big world

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