my careless contagion

Just Another Girl by The Killers. This was released in November 2013, almost exactly 5 years ago. The video is a sort of retrospective, combining elements from past The Killers videos. It's an odd video mostly for that reason. And I don't get the concept of the girl in place of Brandon Flowers, unless they're trying to say she kind of took over his mind and then his body. Playing with gender is pretty trendy right now. I guess it doesn't matter. The song is saying it's impossible to move on when you want only one girl. I can understand the sentiment.  I think a lot of people have a hard time moving on after they set their heart on someone. You wake up every morning with that person as the first thing on your mind, and you go to bed with them still in your head. It's like they live there more than you do.  It's been almost two years since she came back into my life. It was innocent at first, but then I started to overstep. There was something about he...

*I must have listened to this song a dozen times over the last couple of weeks. Every time I think I have it figured out, I realize I don't. The lyrics don't help. The imagery is Carnival-esque, with the dancers and the giant devil skull, the throwing of the whatever to the empty desert night. My favorite part may be when Brandon Flowers "plays" the drums with the puppies at the end. I guess if you can't figure out what a song or video is about, you can just say it's about drugs. And it may be just that. Maybe I think too much. Or maybe I just like puzzles. Either way, I like this song. If the spaceman says we're going to be alright, that this is all in our minds, then I will at least take that with me. We all need to hear that from time to time. When you've lost seemingly everything and you're drifting through the cold night of space, you really need to hear that.* It started with a low light, Next thing I knew they ripped me fro...

*I loved this album by The Killers when it came out. The whole album -- their first -- reminded me of the music during the 80s, which was more interesting than so much that was on the radio in 2004. The keyboards were a dead giveaway that they were paying homage to some of the 80s sounds. I still like this song. Unfortunately, my mind goes to a dark place when I hear it. It's me trying to put a spin on a bad situation, a bad relationship, bad memories. Sitting here now, I realize that I waited much too long to extract myself from that relationship, that it did permanent, irreparable damage to my self-esteem which was already low.  I shouldn't have understood this song as well as I did. I got the jealousy part, although I didn't recognize it as jealousy. I was in a relationship where I just couldn't have the girl in her totality; she always belonged to someone else as much or more than me. There were always men she was involved with (and sometimes girls). I was si...