Seeking a nice girl

Father and son package. Inseparable. Neither are anywhere near perfect, but they love each other a lot. Could you make these guys a part of your life? Could you take my hand and teach me — and my son — how a real woman loves and cares for those she loves? Do you have a big heart and beautiful soul?

My name is Joshua. That's my son, Isaiah. That picture was taken this summer at the end of a long day of playing. We were both sweaty and tired, and one of us was way past his bedtime (you can see it on his face). My son is almost 6 years old. He's all I have in this world besides God. I'd like to share my life with a nice girl. Are you a nice girl? 

First, my son. He's hyper. He's sensitive, too. He's a bit overwhelming. He's loud. He's fun. He's also super bright, but I'm pretty sure he has a learning disability. He may also be on the spectrum. I'm not sure. He is often overstimulated by ordinary things. Someday, someone will tell me what drug he should be on. Someday he's going to be a big man because he's growing fast. I don't care how big he gets as long as he talks to God and listens to His direction. 

He loves stars and planets and all things space. He loves dinosaurs and little kid shows (like Cocomelon).  He loves to experiment and make his own creations. He likes to collect junk (I swear I'm not this messy). He loves animals and people even more. He's the friendliest kid in the world, I think. He will talk your ear off, and you'll wonder where he gets all those crazy thoughts. I don't know either. He has a bit of a lisp. It's a good thing I like the sound of a lisp because I get to listen to him talk all day, every day. He even talks in his sleep — great volumes! As exasperating as he is sometimes, it was a great blessing to watch him ride his bike without training wheels this summer, and hold his hand many times as he fell asleep, or calm him during hailstorms. Being a father is one of the coolest things God has blessed me with. I wish I had done more of it, and sooner. If you have children, would you like to add one more? This one likes to help clean and fold laundry. That's worth a lot in my book.

Then there is me. I'm almost 43. I've been through absolute hell in my relationships in the past. I'm a calm and gentle man. If we are in a relationship, I'll do anything for you. I'm all heart, even though my heart is still a little broken (and a little weak physically, too). That's the thing about second chances. What we offer isn't as good as the first time around, but think of how brave that makes us, trying again after so much heartache, rejection, and pain. Brave, or, perhaps, a little silly in the head. I prefer brave! Are you brave, too?

I still have so much to offer, and more than just my warmth in bed (and if I snore, just push me over on my side). I love with abandon. I love with everything I have. I care deeper than words will ever say, but if you want, I will say it, too. I'm ready to move from this place or welcome you here. I'm willing to figure it out with you, every step of the way. Let's do it together. Will you be my partner?

Do you have idiosyncracies? I do too! Let's share them or figure it out along the way. I don't care. As long as it's us doing it, as long as we do it together. No one is perfect, but when we fall in love with someone, they become perfect for us. Are you ready to fall in love?