Dreams

In my dreams she's always right beside me, always touching me, holding my hand. In my dreams, she's tossing her hair in the sunlight with an impossibly wide smile on her face. Her eyes are full of passion, full of love, and full of us. 

She makes love to me with her whole body and her whole soul. She lets me take her body and soul because she knows I'm careful with precious things. She breathes hot on my face and neck, and I hold her waist, her arms, her thighs, her neck, her back, her ... you get the idea. 

In my dreams, she's always been mine. Our children light up our days and fill our nights with words and laughter and song. In my dreams, she has our pictures on the wall, and our house echoes with the memories we've lived. 

I ache for her. Maybe she was afraid of a man loving her like this. Maybe she didn't know what to do with it. But love is a verb, and it desires, it moves, it creates, it transcends. In my dreams, my love transcends everything and runs to her. 

In my dreams, my hands cradle her face and press it to mine, I taste her lips and she tastes mine. Our eyes share things that words cannot express, and our heat burns down the world. 

In my dreams, I never have to wake and feel an empty spot next to me. In my dreams, her hair tickles my neck, her lips trace my earlobes, and all is well. 

If I could, I would imagine a place for us where no heartache can interfere, a safe place where she is always near, where my arms are like a castle, my words like a sound defense, my actions impenetrable.  

In my dreams, she whispers the words I want to hear. In my dreams, she never has to wonder how I feel or how safe she is with me. In my heart, I know this place exists. 

In these beautiful dreams, there is darkness. But there is also light. There is trouble. But there is also us. In my dreams, there's no need to say goodbye. I know I'll see her again, too, if only in my dreams. 

There is a place where lovers go. If you don't know what I'm talking about, then you haven't truly loved. It's a beautiful place, and it's real. But sometimes, the only way to be there is in our dreams. 

I'll see you there, sweet girl.