Every single song

 
 
Driving somewhere
driving nowhere
driven to distraction
driven just to drive

My constant companion
my radio
sings the sweetest songs
and other ones too

The songs help me remember
and help me forget

Just when I think I've forgotten
she cuts through me
– with a gasp –
she's got me again

Riding through my thoughts
without a thought
she cuts through my skin
like it's paper

I could argue that she never leaves me
she's always in my head
but there are moments
when she has her way with me

If I could make her mine
I would
If there was any way
I would do it

I had to let her go
but she won't let go of me
in the night
and all day long

It's like she's embedded
in every single thought
and when I drive
she's in every single song.


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