God is faithful
Waiting. Sometimes it drives us nuts. Sometimes it produces fruit like patience. Sometimes it does both. Hey, I'm not where I want to be in life, but I'm positive I am where God wants me to be at the moment.
Today, I said yes to a job (no start date yet, but the paperwork begins). There was no logical reason why I hadn't been able to get a job until now except God said it wasn't time. Yesterday it felt like the health problems making me feel incredibly tired and ill evaporated. I now know the cause of that feeling (low-level carbon monoxide poisoning). I wouldn't have been able to work very well in that condition. God's timing is not always our timing, but it is the best timing. This is an incredible load off my mind. All of that. Yes, when you ask God for something good, you will get it. But you may not get it right away. And there are reasons for that. I'm sorry it took me 44 years to learn that. I have to be okay with whatever God does. It is the best way. All I know is not having a job was a significant hurdle to moving forward. With that hurdle removed, I feel emboldened. Whatever the next step is, I am happy to take it.
Going forward, I apply this lesson to everything else. I have one post I've been sitting on (about a woman I admire greatly) because I treasure it. And I'm working on another about my new town. This blog isn't so much about helping me process things anymore, as I now have tools for that. This frees me up to write about things I enjoy and look forward to. It opens up new possibilities. And that seems to be the theme lately. If anyone is still reading here, you got to witness a possibly rare journey of faith documented in real-time. The progress made in the last four years is astounding, but most of it came within the last year. I am grateful for the things I learned, though the cost was great. Nearly four years after beginning this blog, I'm not where I imagined I would be. I got off track. I thought I would be with a specific woman. Settled down. Living life. Enjoying God's blessings. I gave my heart and desires to the Lord because my heart still wants those things. This, like everything else, is not in my hands. When anything bothers me anymore, I remind myself I gave it all to God. That has given me tremendous peace.
Before I wrap up, let me mention I asked God to let me move forward as quickly as possible, whatever His plans. Everything changed after one day when I fasted much of the day. I took a stand against every obstacle and form of resistance. That seemed to change everything. Things started to fall into place after that. I see no reason why God will not speed me through further changes. I've got green lights. And I'm not scared anymore.
Recently it felt a huge chapter of my life simply ended. God ended it. It included the great pain of my childhood and divorce. It is simply over. My heart is so grateful. Today, my heart is full of love. I am at peace. God is good. God is faithful. I pray I remain faithful to Him, as well.
Thank you for reading. And God bless.
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