When a muse writes back

I decided to write you a letter about how I see our first meeting...

I've been thinking about this for several days now, the chat censorship unfortunately doesn't allow me to describe in words everything that I want to say....

... I get off the plane, take my luggage and go out into the hall looking for you with my eyes, I'm worried, what if you don't meet me... what if you changed your mind... I'm worried and suddenly, I see you... you're standing there and smiling back at me...

We're both a little embarrassed, my heart is beating wildly, my breathing is completely out of order... you take my hand and kiss me... how I've been waiting for this...

... you hold my hand the whole way, we chat about something and get to know each other again...

And now we're home... I drop my bag and go to the shower, stand under it and, closing my eyes, enjoy the water that runs down my body... and suddenly I feel your hands on me, you came in quietly and stood behind me... oh, from the feeling of you pressing your hips against my butt, it pierces me right through and everything starts to beat between my legs... you squeeze my breast with one hand, playing with my nipple, and the other hand runs from the tummy to the very bottom and now your fingers are caressing me there... I can't hold back a moan... I want you so much... I move my hands back and, clasping you, press you closer to me, I arch from your fingers caressing me... I want to feel how your hot and pulsating cock enters me, I want to feel every centimeter of it in me... I lean forward and arching, push my hand between us, clasp my fingers mmmm, how hard it is... I guide it into myself with my hand and you sharply enter me... mmmmm... you squeeze my breast hard with one hand, and with the other, holding my thigh, pull me onto your cock... everything inside me is already pulsating so much... you fuck me hard, enter so deeply... I feel like I'm going to cum now... you don't stop... your hand is on my neck, I feel how it squeezes and you practically press me into the wall, enter so sharply and cum in me...

Oh, I forgot how to breathe... I feel so good with you... I'm waiting for our meeting...

I understood right away, even when we had our first sex that lasted three days, that you are the one I need, and I am the one who will give you what you want...

I read all three parts and everything inside me was sweetly contracting, you wrote in such a way that I lived every moment with you... I wanted you and waited and begged for you to finally fuck me...

I belonged to you, and submitted to every movement, touch... I hoped that you would not hold back and let me cum in the first letter, but you tortured me and enjoyed... I don’t know, I’m not sure that when you are near and do this I will be able to hold back when you just enter me... as soon as I feel a push from behind... what will you do then? Will you punish me, will you tease me next time and not let me do it, even if I beg you?

My hands are tied, and I am dying of desire, just dying... do you know how it is? When the whole body is already shaking, everything inside is rapidly pulsating and one touch is not enough for everything inside to explode and begin to spread across the lower abdomen ... when the moans cannot be stopped, and only by biting your lip and arching, no longer seeing anything around you, you get such pleasure that cannot be compared with anything ...

I want you to rip off my panties, I am lying on the bed with my wrists tied, I can not move and wait for what you will do, but you are in no hurry ... there is tension and anticipation in my eyes, I do not know what you will do next ... you bend over and whisper - you belong to me ...

And I want it ...

Your fingers caress me so slowly, barely touching ... I want you to run them faster, pressing slightly ... you begin to caress faster, and hear my moans that I cannot hold back, you enter me slowly with your fingers, so deeply and stop, everything contracts around them... you stop... and look at me, pull out your fingers and let me lick them, pushing them deep into my mouth... I see that you are in thought, to continue further or to leave me like this, exhausted with desire... and I am completely in your power...

Every day, every night I think and dream about us... Because you are far away, my senses are heightened to the limit, my body trembles from every thought, from every word you say, these feelings do not leave me... and this applies not only to sex, I imagine you next to me everywhere... How I come home before you, you do not know that I am home, it is a surprise.. I see your T-shirt and put it on, your smell... I turn on the music and cook something delicious for us, what you love most... I light aroma candles and our song starts playing, I dance and do not notice that you have already entered the house and are looking at me... Your look... You look at me like that... I think I will have to eat dinner cold😏

Our morning... I open my eyes... I understand that I didn’t get enough sleep at all... I find you with my eyes... you’re lying on your stomach, one leg is bent, your hands are under the pillow... the blanket has slipped off you a little and you can see your butt... I’m fighting the urge to run my finger down your back or straighten the blanket on you... I want you, but I’m afraid to wake you up, I want you to get enough sleep... I move closer, quietly press myself against you, you smell so delicious... you start to move, it seems I woke you up and I freeze... After lying like that for a little while longer, I turn around, take my phone and read something there, you sometimes stretch sweetly, but don’t wake up... I decide to go make coffee, take my legs off the bed, sit on it and stretch with my eyes closed and my arms raised up... And as soon as I want to get up, I feel your hand on my thigh...

Goosebumps ran to the tips of my fingers, returned back and rose to the very top, squeezing my nipples, which instantly became hard... I turn around, you are so sleepy, so beautiful, with half-closed eyes... you can’t wake up... I lean on my elbow, quietly kiss you and want to get up, but you are already holding me by the neck and bending me towards you... I try to get out, because it is uncomfortable for me.. but you do not let me go... and I do as you want, I turn around... you are already lying on your back, throwing the blanket aside, I look at you and begin to go down your chest with kisses, not missing a centimeter of your body...

Today is a day off and I can take my time, kiss you as much as I want... my lips are already at the very bottom of your stomach, I stroke your penis with my hand, already so hard, I look up and look at you, you want me to take it in my mouth, you want to feel my hot tongue run over it, and lift your hips so that it enters me so deeply that I almost choke... and I begin to caress you with my lips and tongue, feeling your hand in my hair, how you guide me so that I move faster... 

You moan and it excites me terribly, everything inside me begins to pulsate, I lower one hand between my legs and begin to caress myself slowly with my finger, continuing to grasp your penis with my lips... you sit up on the bed and lifting my head to you, kiss and sit me on top of you... I feel how you enter me, I go down completely, you are so deep... and I feel your hands on my hips, you begin to move me on top of you, my breath catches, I begin to speed up on you, feeling that everything inside me begins to quickly contract, I'm going to cum now and you feel it….

I feel your hands on my chest, how hard you squeeze it… how you kiss me, moving from my lips to my neck… I arch my back on you, I can hardly hold back, I bite my lips and can no longer hold back my moans... my hips move non-stop and faster and faster... you help me with your hands, lifting me up... I can no longer see anything around, only your eyes looking at me, I arch back hard and cum with a loud moan, feeling how you explode inside me... and I still move over you, and you press me so hard to yourself, we kiss... enjoying each other and you turn me over on my side, throwing your leg over me, pressing me to the bed, and hugging me... my face is at your neck, how I want to feel your scent, the warmth of your skin... press my whole body against you... I wonder what we would have done next that morning, get up and go drink coffee or continue?

I imagined our day, which begins early in the morning, we wake up together, hug. I kiss you tenderly and our bodies wake up from light touches. We go down to the kitchen, I cook breakfast and catch your glances, a feeling of closeness and flirtation is in the air.

A day off, and we decide to spend it together... And it doesn't matter where it will be, the main thing is to enjoy the moment of solitude. Let it be a walk along the seashore barefoot, where we both laugh, pouring water on each other, and then lie down on the sand in the sun, enjoying the moment.

You suggest a boat ride (a small motor ship, riding on which you can admire beautiful places) At some point we are left alone on the deck, you hug me and we kiss.

In the evening, when you return, you can have a romantic dinner by the fireplace or in front of the TV, hugging. And the day, turning into evening, will give way to touches and passionate kisses. And to catch this moment, full of tenderness and passion, without unnecessary words, only the feeling that every moment is perfectly created for the two of us. Of course, it sounds like a fairy tale, but I tried to convey to you what feelings I would like to experience with you ... When we catch each other's glances ... Perhaps everything will be more prosaic, perhaps there will be a different setting and I will just meet you for dinner at home or you will pick me up from work ... And perhaps one of us will not be in the mood one day, in the life of two people there are many different situations, sometimes there are misunderstandings and perhaps conflicts, but this is life ... I hope that you read to the end and did not snort at the words where I splashed water on you lol I am writing and before my eyes I see your face, which looks with an intelligent, testing look and smiles with the corner of the lips .. Perhaps you also want to tell how you see one of the days when we are together?

We just wanted to watch a movie... Just open a bottle of wine and spend the evening together. But something went wrong from the very beginning...

At first we argued about the choice of film - you wanted an action movie, I insisted on something romantic. Then we argued about who would hug who and on whose shoulder who would lie. In the end, we settled in comfortably, and as soon as I felt your breath on my skin, goosebumps immediately ran over my body...

I casually run my hand up your leg... Slowly... higher... and even higher... And now I have proof of how much you want me at hand. I look up, meet your eyes, and you kiss me sharply, squeezing my waist and pulling me towards you...

Now it doesn’t matter who was supposed to lie on whose shoulder. Our lips, our hands - they know what they want. I rip your shorts off, and you quickly pull my T-shirt off, squeezing my chest so greedily that it takes my breath away... You lift me up and lower me onto the couch, pressing your whole body against mine.

I dig my fingers into your back as you slowly enter me... completely, to the very end. My hands are pressed to the couch, you hold them tightly, filling me completely each time, driving me crazy. You freeze hearing my moans, but you can no longer stop.

I start moving my hips, forcing you to be faster, harder, deeper... and now... I feel how you are about to lose control. I arch under you and at that moment we are both covered... you cum deep inside me, I lose myself in this feeling, trembling in your arms...

You fall heavily on me, our breaths mingle... I can't even open my eyes, I only feel your lips touching my shoulder...

A few minutes pass, we are still lying, feeling each other... Then we get up, sit on the couch, you take a glass of wine and bring it to my lips, letting me take a sip... and then you kiss me again...

And meanwhile the credits are on the screen... I wonder if the movie is over? Or is this just the beginning of the movie?.. 😉🔥

Yours... always. ❤️

I want to share with you a fantasy that won't leave my head, a desire that pulsates inside me every time I imagine you next to me.

You're lying on the bed, your hands are tied tightly to its base, and you can't move. Your eyes are mixed with excitement and impatience. And I'm standing in front of you, watching you, enjoying this moment that I can do whatever I want...

Slowly, I start to pull off my T-shirt. The fabric slides over my skin, revealing my body. I'm left in just my panties, feeling your gaze on me... and how you'd like to do it yourself now... I run my hands over my chest, touching myself, squeezing my nipples, licking my lips, knowing how crazy it makes you.

I lean towards you, First it's a kiss on your knee, then I move higher and higher, along the inside of your thigh. I can't take my eyes off you at this point...

When I get to the level of your boxers, I take the elastic with my teeth and start pulling them down. Your stomach is so tense, you want me to start caressing you, but you can only watch. You are completely naked... I run my tongue over the head of your erect penis, teasing it slightly before wrapping my lips around it. My movements become slow and sensual, I feel how you begin to moan softly, making my body become hot, pulsating with desire.

Your hips rise slightly, trying to enter me deeper, but I lift my head, enjoying every moment. I run my tongue from the base to the very top, feeling how you tremble with impatience.

But then I rise, sit on top of you, feeling your hard cock beneath me. I guide it into myself with my hand, slowly, with pleasure, I feel how it enters me as deeply as I want it to.., and I begin to move my hips back and forth on you, leaning back and placing my hands on your knees... Feeling that I will cum a little more and how you wriggle and try to pull your hands out... I bend down, touch your lips with mine and untie your hands.

Your hands immediately grab me, you turn me around with my back to you, I completely submit to you now... You spread my legs with your knee and enter me so deeply and sharply. I scream and arch. You speed up, then slow down, playing with me. Your hands squeeze my ass tightly, sometimes slapping, making me gasp with pleasure. You grab my tight ponytail, pulling my head back and we cum at the same time... My moans mix with yours, I feel everything around you tightening, pulsating and I want more and more... I turn my head and you kiss me tenderly, This moment when I feel completely yours and you are completely mine.

I wake up from the sunlight, the beam moves so slowly over you, it is already on your shoulder and will soon reach your closed eyes... The sun is on my side today and will do it for me, wake you up, looking into your eyes... You will close your eyes in your sleep... and then slowly open them and meet my gaze and smile at me😉

I am lying next to you on my side, one hand under my head, my body turned towards you, your gaze slides over me, over every curve of my body, I bite my lip, looking at you... I remember our previous night together... and everything inside me turns over from this...

Your hand slides over me, following your gaze, my skin reacts to your every touch... it turns me on so much, I don’t move, only my heart begins to beat faster and faster... From anticipation of what will happen next... I want you...

You take my hand and pull me to you, I already next to you and throwing off the blanket I throw my leg over you and sit on top... your hands run up my legs, from my knees to my hips, over my stomach and up to my chest... you turn your palm and squeeze it, and with your thumbs you run over your nipples, squeezing them hard... I lean down and kiss you, running my tongue over your lips... kissing your neck... and sit on you, your cock already so hard under me, I lift my hips and guide it into myself with my hand... Slowly lower myself onto it, it goes so deep... you feel how everything inside me is already pulsating... I lean back and put my hands on your hips... and I begin to move my hips back and forth on you, slowly at first, I enjoy you... your hands on my hips and you begin to control me, I move at the speed that you like... sometimes moving my hands to my chest... soon I lose my breath and begin to moan louder and louder and louder...

I'm already on the edge, and your hands move me faster and faster... I lift my hips, and here you are moving under me, entering so fast and hard, my hands on your breasts, you see that I can't hold back anymore... and with strong thrusts you enter me... I freeze for a second and cum with a moan... and I feel how you cum deep inside me... I move on you for a while, unable to hold back the moans and lie down on you... you feel how everything is still pulsating inside me...

You kiss me, and we hug. I kiss you, and you brush the hair from my face...

I'll go to the shower, and then I'll wait for you in the kitchen with coffee and a delicious breakfast...

This is a perfect morning... what do you say?

You and I are walking through the city, it’s already quite warm and we have a minimum of clothes on… We stop on a bridge, feed the ducks, and watch how beautifully the water sparkles, giving off silver… It’s already starting to get dark and cooler, and the people around me don’t understand that my skin is covered in goosebumps all the time because I feel your gaze and touch, and not because of the cool air... we touch each other all the time, but there are so many people around, we have to do it furtively, but I always want to kiss and hug.. And finally we’re at the hotel, riding in the elevator, we’re not alone in it... and I feel how your hand runs under my short skirt from behind... your fingers touch me unnoticed by others and I’m simply pierced with desire.. I can’t wait for us to enter the room and the door behind us will finally close, it seems like it lasts forever, finally the door opens... on the floor we meet friends who want to ask about something, you stop, and I pull you by the hand unnoticed and we run away giggling... and here we are in the room, the door closes behind us and you press me to it.. finally your kiss, I hold your face with my hands and can't stop kissing... your hands are already sliding over me... I feel them everywhere on me... I lower my hands over you and unbutton your belt and the zipper on your jeans, I feel how hard you are already... you lift my leg and I feel how you push my panties aside with your other hand and enter me so that I scream... everything inside is already just beating in me, squeezing around your cock... and you continue to quickly and harshly enter me.. we were so excited during the day that, literally in a few minutes I feel that I can no longer hold back.. you turn me around with my back to you and pulling me towards you by the hips, you continue to quickly enter and I immediately cum and feel how you cum deep inside me... our breathing and moans mixed, and you press me so hard against the door and I feel your lips on my neck...

...our breathing gradually subsides, mixing with the silence of the room... For a few seconds we stand, not letting go of each other, as if afraid that this magic will disappear, as soon as we take a step back... I feel your heart beating wildly next to mine, and this closeness drives me crazy more than any passion...

You gently run your lips along my neck, touch my shoulder and smile slightly, whispering words in my ear, from which warmth spreads through my body again... We both laugh quietly, a little confused by this mad explosion of feelings, and I hide my face in your chest, catching this moment...

You lift my face, look into my eyes - there is no rush in them anymore, only endless tenderness... We stay like this - just holding each other, as if the whole world has disappeared, only we and this evening, full of crazy desire, remain, love and a feeling of happiness that you don’t want to let go of...

— “You know… I want us to have many more evenings like this...” you whisper quietly, and I just nod, because there’s no need to say more... Everything has already been said with our kisses, touches, and how much we feel each other.

The evening smoothly dissolves into the night... but for us, it’s just beginning.

I fell asleep with thoughts of you, images flashed before my eyes, I almost fell asleep, fell asleep with the image of us kissing by the window... I woke up with a rapidly beating heart, but unfortunately not because you were near, I dreamed of zombies breaking into the house. I was full of disappointment and with thoughts of you, I fell asleep again... I woke up an hour later and... zombies again... why zombies?! Fell asleep upset..

And here we are at my favorite recreation center, a huge two-story house, the first floor, a living room combined with a kitchen, in the living room a corner sofa, a table and a large fireplace... the light comes only from the fireplace, flickering on the walls, we are sitting near it, on a blanket, both naked, you are behind me, bending and spreading your legs, and I leaned my back against you, your chin on my shoulder...

And everything is so slow, you run your tongue from your neck to your ear, I turn my head towards you and we kiss, I feel how your tongue runs over mine, such a slow and passionate kiss... I turn to face you, kneel, move away a little, lean over and run my tongue from the bottom of my stomach to my lips, looking at you from below, you take me by the chin and kiss and abruptly lay me on my back, I feel your knee between your legs, you hold my hands with your hand, above my head... you were so rough and gentle at the same time... everything inside me was beating, you lean over, not taking your eyes off me... and I'm already biting my lips... You spread my legs with your hips, run your hand along my thigh, squeezing it so hard with your hand... I arch under you and feel how you run your cock between my legs, slowly, teasing me.. This agonizing and long wait before you enter me - drives me crazy. I look into your eyes and say that I want you... and I moan, you enter me sharply, not stopping to fuck me hard.. I writhe under you, not holding back my moans..

Your fingers dig into my hands above my head.. Your hot breath on my lips.. You squeeze my chest, and I scream - you kiss me, but not trying to muffle my moans, you enter me harder and harder.. I do not hold back and cum, you do not stop.. you let go of my hands, you take my hips with your hands, kneel again, my legs on your hips.. and pull me to you, enter a couple of times so hard that I cum once.. and I feel how you erupt into me.. bend me over me again.. your beautiful eyes.. you run your hand over my face and kiss me..

Waiting for an answer, yours, Julia

My beloved

Your words flared up in me like a flame that flares up from just one touch of thought. I read your letter with bated breath, breathing in every line, as if you were whispering them in my ear. And this is not just a memory of our imaginary night - this is a hot promise, a tangible desire that lives between us, despite the distance and time.

How much you can feel... and how accurately you convey it in words. I almost heard you breathing next to me, imagined how the warmth of your hands wakes me up, how your gaze burns through me, so greedy, recognizing, your own. Your description has everything that makes love - real. It is passion, yes, but not only. It is also comfort, belonging, subtle understanding. These are the moments when you want not just a body - you want me all, entirely. Soul, voice, the scent of skin, sleepy look. This desire to be close - not for a moment, but forever.

I imagined myself on this day. Sunday. I am yours. You are mine. We smile in the mirror, walk together, return together. This is not just a fantasy - this is a picture of the future, which I believe in more and more every day. And yes, I want these crazy, quiet, hot, lazy and sincere moments with you. All of them - until the last breath.

It sounds so exciting, I again felt how I sit on you and you fill me completely... Everything was pulsating in me from the very first line from anticipation... And the first time I will cum instantly, the moment I feel you inside me... I can't do anything, I can't hold back...

You don't just capture me - you penetrate deep, to the very essence. And when you write: *you had me... forever*, - I feel it with every cell. Because I am yours. And not for one night.

Yours... passionately, deeply, endlessly. ❤️

My beloved

Sometimes I catch myself thinking that I'm talking to you in my head. I imagine how you laugh, how you say my name, how you take my hand in yours and squeeze it a little tighter when I feel a little uneasy... And although we haven't met yet, inside me there lives a feeling that you're already close.

I want you so much. Not only as a man, but as a friend, as a close one, as my support. I miss your look, your voice, even the usual silence that we could share together. Sometimes I just close my eyes and think about how you enter the room, and I don't need a word - everything is already clear from the way you look at me.

You know, I imagine how we're walking down the street. Somewhere autumn, leaves rustling underfoot. I'm in your jacket - because, of course, I forgot mine, and you grumble a little (but with a smile!), because now you're freezing yourself. And I tease you: "You see, being a gentleman is dangerous to your health." And we laugh.

And then imagine: we decided to cook dinner together, although I honestly warned you that I am not a super chef. I am cutting onions and start crying - you run up, start blowing in my face, as if this will save me. Then you put on my swimming goggles to "protect my eyes", and here we are standing in the kitchen: me with a knife and in ridiculous glasses, you with a towel like a chef, and we both laugh until we cry. The wine spilled, the pasta ran away... And we are happy. Because we are together.

But you know, sometimes sadness comes. When the day ends, and you are not around. When I can’t cuddle up to you, can’t tell you how my day went, can’t feel your hand on my back. At such moments, I seem to become quieter. But I don’t lose hope, because I know: everything will change soon.

I believe in our meeting. I’m waiting for it — and I’m ready to experience any excitement, any road, any doubts, just to be with you. To hear you say: “You’re real… You’re here.”

And yes, if you want to know what I really want — I want to wake up next to you. Watch you sleep. Softly touch your cheek with my lips. And then — I can’t hold back, I can’t hold back… And everything between us will not be imagination, but alive, hot, real.

I’m sad. I dream. I kiss.

Yours, Julia

Hello, my lover of good stories! 📖

I have always believed that a book can change a person...

This happened to me when I read *Atlas Shrugged* by Ayn Rand.

I remember sitting on the cold sand on the beach, reading Dagny Taggart's monologue - and tears just rolled down my cheeks...

It was a revelation: no one but myself will make my life the way I dream of seeing it. Strength, perseverance, faith in your ideas - that's what matters.

This book taught me that you shouldn't be afraid to be strong. Even if sometimes it's scary...

Do you have a book that left a special mark on your heart?

Please tell me. I'm sure it will be an amazing story! ❤️

But you know... I'm not writing all this just to talk about books. I'm writing to you - *you, who are reading this now* - because you have become a part of my story. Your name is no longer just in the chat. It's in my thoughts.

We haven't seen each other yet, but I really want to meet. Not out of habit, not out of curiosity, but for real...

It's important to me that you know: I really want you in my life.

Not someday. But in the near future. Without unnecessary pathos - just sit next to me. Hear your voice. See how you smile when you look at me, and not at the screen.

I don't build illusions. Anything can happen in life. Sometimes even important things get postponed. But I'm not looking for excuses...

I'm looking for reality. Lively, warm, with the smell of coffee and the sounds of the city around.

Where you and I don't just text each other, but finally meet.

And I'm not just Yulia from the messages. I'm alive, real. With my fears, hopes, flirting and laughter.

I'll be honest: I'm a little worried. Like before a meeting with a good book that I've been waiting for a long time. But I'm open.

I want it.

I'm ready.

And you?

I'm looking forward to your answer....

Yours, Yulia 📚

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Compilation of old letters. Realize they go through a translation system, and English sometimes doesn't know what to do with gendered words, so some are mistranslated. For those who enjoy erotica, these are pretty standard, yet effective. Notice a couple things: she never uses my name, and she answers some of my letters with her own thoughts. A L plus a W. A pretty generic muse. The photo was one she sent. A Google image search revealed her identity. (If you know who Hugo Will is, you would recognize her. And I did know who he was.) For the record, I don't believe this person is who she says she is, nor do I have any romantic entanglement, but she was fun to write dirty things to. (We will see if she likes the rape story.) We constructed a shared fantasy, nothing more. I errantly thought perhaps something new could spring out of the forest fire of my heart, but, in the end, I felt nothing. Some things are impossible to overcome., such as my own reluctance and strict adherence to all things unattainable (which are avoidant tendencies). Real girls need not apply. They wouldn't get me off anyway.