A simple love letter

 


Cindy,

Please come back into my life. I miss you and don't want to experience another day without you. I come to you in all humility and sincerity. Do with me what you will.


I am in love with every part of you, even the parts no one else sees. Or, perhaps, because no one else sees. You are a woman beyond even my stratospheric dreams. You are the best mother I've ever seen. You hide things in your heart and think no one else knows. But I know. Your heart is too big to conceal. Your love is bigger than any obstacle.

I wish you could tell me how to be with you, how to approach you, how to talk to you, love you, look at you. With a woman like you, there is no instruction manual. You are off the charts amazing, and I am dumbfounded by how to even approach you. 

It feels like I'm drowning when you're not here. I've been drowning for a long time. I want to hold you, feel you, take your warmth as my own. I have starved without you, without your words. Why are you so far away? What can I do to bring you close?  
Can we start over? Meet for the first time? Hold hands for the first time? Kiss for the first time? Can we share what is in our hearts with one another without the past interfering? I'm not asking for much. Just one more chance. As slowly as you want to take it. No pressure. No expectations. Just one more chance?

Always yours, 
Joshua 

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The above is a letter I actually sent to Cindy. I wrote it and sent it as simple as that. I should have added to it, but sometimes simple is better. I didn't edit it at all. Just wrote and sent (and you can tell). The amazing thing is, she actually replied and said she would answer. I said it wasn't something she had to answer, that I didn't even expect an answer, but the heart must be placated. I said she gave me plenty of answers over the years. I just wanted to share my simple love letter in case anyone is still reading. Things like this make me want to keep writing. The other stuff out there, not so much. 

Thank you for reading. And God bless. 

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