my careless contagion

  Cindy, Please come back into my life. I miss you and don't want to experience another day without you. I come to you in all humility and sincerity. Do with me what you will. I am in love with every part of you, even the parts no one else sees. Or, perhaps, because no one else sees. You are a woman beyond even my stratospheric dreams. You are the best mother I've ever seen. You hide things in your heart and think no one else knows. But I know. Your heart is too big to conceal. Your love is bigger than any obstacle. I wish you could tell me how to be with you, how to approach you, how to talk to you, love you, look at you. With a woman like you, there is no instruction manual. You are off the charts amazing, and I am dumbfounded by how to even approach you.  It feels like I'm drowning when you're not here. I've been drowning for a long time. I want to hold you, feel you, take your warmth as my own. I have starved without you, without your w...

If I ever see that girl again, and if we're ever alone, I will fall down on my knees, crumble like no man ever should and hold her ankles tight. I will break before her eyes, and she will see something she's never seen before. She will see the most broken man say the most pitiful things. He'll say he's so sorry, the sorriest he's ever been in his life. He'll say he can't go on any longer, the regret is tearing him apart. He'll say he'll do anything to help her get her life back, just say the word and he'll do it. Please, please, just let me do it.   I get it now. I see why you had to leave me. I see what it means for you to carry on, and I don't want you to do that. I want you to have what you had, and I know what that means for me. If there's an altar somewhere, I'll sacrifice myself to this cause. If there's a time machine, I'll buy it for us. If there's a way -- any way to undo what I've done -- I'll do ...