Command Z

I work on an Apple computer at my workplace. They're awesome for graphic work, which is a lot of my job. Anyway, the most helpful shortcut is undo, or command z. Sometimes I wish I could do command z in life, too.

Last week I posted a long diatribe about relationships. I painted the woman I am in love with in a bad light. While some of the things I said were deserved, some of it may have been hyperbole. I was writing from a place of pain and frustration, clearly. 

She did get in touch with me recently and said she didn't realize she had said things to hurt me, and she never meant to hurt me. It was a confusing, whirlwind time for both of us, and I admit, I pushed her too hard to have a relationship with me. We both did and said things that were unfair.

Since she is a main theme on this blog, I would be remiss if I did not update my audience on the fact that she does indeed still read this blog and does care about me very much. I regret my tone in that post, of course, because I didn't know she was in the audience. 

So, she's still out there. We again agreed we are both not healthy enough to persue a relationship, if that is in the cards, but we also still share a tenderness for one another.  

That's all. I just wanted to make a short statement that I was coming from a place of anger and pain. While that is part of my process, and this space is for my thoughts and feelings often without regard to anyone else's, I still have a responsibility to correct mistakes in my posts.