Ups and downs

Where are the ups? They are, seemingly, nonexistent. At least for me. It seems other people have their ups. Maybe I chisel away at the ups because I know the downs will be worse if I experience the ups to their fullness. By protecting myself from the fullness of the ups, the great disparity between the ups and the downs is not felt. Something like that. Anyway, here are a couple memes that pretty much sum up this blog. 

Any retrospective is bound to be cringe-worthy. This one is especially so. Just think, when I get to heaven, I can replay my life. Won't that be fun! I think I'll hide when they're doing that. Is there a fast-forward button? I'm praying for that. Anyway, one thing is sure; it will all be over soon. Sooner if I get my prayers answered. 

Life doesn't make any sense unless you understand the spiritual battle, the cosmic chess match, so to speak. Read Job if you want to see how God antagonizes and plays with the devil, motivating him at will to do God's bidding. What a funny thing to see the devil play into God's plans over and over again. Read the Bible with that in mind and you'll really get a kick out of it. Just think how the devil must have felt at Calvary when he crucified Jesus, not realizing he just unleashed God's grace upon all humanity, not just the Jews. What the devil intended to be a final victory was his eternal undoing. And saved me in the process. What looked like utter defeat for God and His people turned out to be the opposite. What a brilliant move! 

So, I hope I'm just blind to what God is doing and someday it will all make sense. I can't help but follow His leading, though I do, of course, make mistakes. As the song says, "It will be worth it all when we get home." Amen. 

Look for a lengthy post this weekend. 

Thank you for reading. And God bless. 

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