Request for prayer

I don't know if anyone is still reading here. If not, that's fine. But this post is something I rarely do. I'm asking for prayer. If anyone reading here prays and has a moment, please say a prayer for me because I am not doing well, even relative to how I am normally. 

Backing up a bit, I feel God gave me a directive Jan. 6, which I immediately requested a confirmation thereof and believed I got the same night. I won't say exactly what either of those things were because I feel I've been wrong to do that sort of thing in the past. It is embarrassing if or when either 1) it becomes clear I haven't heard God's voice or 2) I am not able to perform what I feel God told me to do. So, I will leave the details out and simply ask for prayer regarding this situation. I need to know if I heard God's voice and because of past experiences, I'm unsure if I'm hearing the right voice. That puts me in a rather bad position, but my prayer is God will open the door if indeed I heard His voice. That takes the pressure off me. 


So, I'm just asking for prayer so I know for sure if I'm hearing God's voice. I know that's a strange request, but if I don't have that knowledge, then I don't have anything as a Christian. Maybe I need to be quiet for a while. I have a lot to say, and maybe that's preventing me from hearing what God is saying. 

I haven't been in a good place for a long time, and I just want to start healing and feeling like happiness is possible. Things have been hard lately. I'm very tired and haven't had a break in literally years. I don't have a whole lot of energy, so if I waste energy going in the wrong direction, I may never find my way back to where I need to be. And the last few years have paralyzed me to the point of inaction because so many bad things happened and I wasn't sure what I should be doing. So, most of the time, I do nothing. I'm a very simple man with simple desires but with very complex thinking patterns. Maybe stuff gets lost in all that complexity. Following God is pretty straightforward. I shouldn't overthink. All I have to do is be sure I heard God's voice, and I am sure He will open the door at the right time. 

That's all I wanted to say in this space. As in the past, I humbly seek God and ask for direction. I know there are other important things going on in the world, but this is important to me, too. 

Thank you for reading, and God bless. 

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