my careless contagion

I've been thinking about brokenness and what that means to a Christian. It's easy to think about this concept because I don't have to look far. I am a broken man. These are some of my thoughts.  It is clear my past relationships and jobs and other things were just a cover for a lot of childhood trauma. My sadness took hold in my childhood, and I looked for things in my life to blame for that sadness. I may have even self-sabotaged in order to do that. Whatever the case, I feel I've been a broken man most of my life.  The good news is, God can use that brokenness. Psalm 34:18 states God is near the brokenhearted and saves those of a contrite spirit. Automatically, God is closer to me than those who are not broken or do not admit their brokenness. However I may have gotten here, I'm here. There's more, though. Brokenness is often an outcome of walking with Jesus. Matthew 21:44 says that whoever falls on the rock (Jesus) will be broken, but on whomever the...

Do people even use the word "irk" anymore? I don't know. But I'm irked. What was once a feeling of being bothered by my ex-spouse has turned into a full-blown feeling of being irked . All the time. In fact, I would say it sometimes turns grotesque. But we won't talk about that. Why am I so angry? I think it's a natural thing to dislike the person you divorced, right? Otherwise, why the hell did you divorce them? There are some reasons why that could happen, I realize, but eventually, in order to move on, your feelings have to reconcile with the facts. And the fact is she irks me.  I have to work with my ex-wife for the time being. I mean, I could probably get a job waiting tables, but it wouldn't pay me as much as this one (also, I'm pretty sure I don't care how you like your steak, sir), most likely, and the end goal is to save money and move away from here. I don't like where I live, and it seems like everyone here dies of cancer. Re...