my careless contagion

I'm a bad man. No, not Batman. Or any other superhero. I'm a bad man, and there is no other way to look at it. This blog is all about honesty, so let's be honest. I'm a low-down dirty dog. I've done some awful things for which I have no excuse or justification. God doesn't grade on a curve; what's wrong for one person is wrong for another. It wasn't wrong when I left my marriage; I talked it through with God, prayed about it, then acted. However, my choice to hurt my ex-wife in the process by having a relationship while still married was wrong. Yes, society says having a relationship while being separated isn't wrong, but I'm looking to a higher authority than society. After all, society says all sorts of bad things are okay. Society tolerates Justin Bieber. Need I say more? I'm kidding, of course. Is it okay to hurt someone who hurt you? What do I tell my son? I tell him to avoid that person and tell a person in authority what's g...

Future Keanu is way cooler than Future Joshua. Today is my birthday. I'm 42. Birthdays sometimes lend themselves to contemplation. Once I start doing that, it's easy to get caught up in the drama of the past. After a great disturbance (just like a storm that blows over), it's helpful to put your life in perspective and rest. Then, you begin to ask yourself, "What next?" What does Future Joshua look like? I've been gifted with yet another life reboot. Not everyone gets to start over again as I have. In some ways, it is very tiring (exhausting, really), and in other ways, it is refreshing. There are many big decisions I simply can't handle right now. But that doesn't stop me from wondering and hoping. So, what am I looking forward to?  I feel it's overdue that I settle down somewhere. I'm not looking forward to moving, however, but I want to lay my head down in a place that feels more permanent, a place I haven't rejected as my home...