my careless contagion

The movie I Still Believe (2020) is important for a few reasons. It highlights things every Christian goes through if they follow the Lord. You will have loss. You will have questions. You will be broken. If you are following God but haven't experienced those yet, don't let my words deter you. It is worth it, dear, if you let God redeem those moments. And it will make sense someday. I rewatched the movie recently, this time with my son. The first time I watched, I was house-sitting for the woman I wrote about so much on this blog, the one who decided to exit my life last year for good and forever. When I watched it the first time, I had the thought God might allow the same sort of thing to happen to me with the thing I loved the most in this world, just as he did Jeremy Camp, who lost his wife to cancer. To watch the movie again was surreal, as it took me back to that moment. What transpired since that evening roughly two years ago when I relaxed with the family dog in the liv...

In all my years and in all my thinking about the woman I would someday meet, I never knew she would be as amazing as you. Had I known, I would have abandoned fantasies and dead ends, sought you in every street and every avenue. Had I known you’d have such captivating green eyes, I would have shunned the gaze of so many women. Had I known you’d come to me, I would have waited patiently.  I never knew you’d come from so far away, that you’d have so much love and passion to give. I never knew your kisses would be so tender, your mind so dirty, your body so fit, your mind even fitter.  I never knew you’d be a petite brunette minx who would make me laugh more than anyone else, who would always turn a bad day around. I never knew how quickly you would capture my restless heart and flood my soul with hope. I didn’t know you would appear during the worst year of my life, shining light in my darkest hour.  I never knew I’d fall in love so fast and so hard, when I thought falling i...

My grandmother (the last of my grandparents) passed away a couple of weeks ago. She was born in 1917 during WWI and nearly made it to her 106th birthday. I attended her celebration of life (it didn't feel much like a funeral) and had some thoughts and feelings I'd like to share. My mother wrote the following about her mother and spoke to those who attended these words. God did something at this service I'd like to share at the end. It was a blessing to me.  Thank you for coming today. And thank you for your friendship with my mother. I know each of you was important to her, as was this church. I don’t know how to condense a person’s life into just a few minutes. But I would like to share some of the things my mother taught me. My mother never told me I could do anything I set my heart to do. But she did teach me that — without words — as I observed her life. Those of you who know her well know that when she is determined to do something, she will not be denied. That evident...