my careless contagion

All this time I've been looking at the wind and the waves (which are furious, sure), but I should have had my eyes on Jesus Christ. God perhaps put in my mind the beginning of a poem called "You bid me," which relates to the story of Peter walking on water. I tried to finish it the best I could. Matthew 14:28-31 28  And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water. 29  And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. 30  But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. 31  And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt? You bid me I wouldn't have come this far had you not bid me I wouldn't have these scars had you not healed me I'm so far from everything I've ever known and I've done i...

Without beleaguering the point, my readers know my life has not been a cake walk. It's not something I try to dwell on, but it's unnerving sometimes how difficult it has been. Still, in my darkest moments, I was able to see beauty around me. Something at the heart of me cried out for beauty, and it was always there.  The greatest defeater of happiness seems to be comparisons. It's so unfair to ourselves. No one lives the same life, so it's never going to be a fair comparison. Given our innate drive to better ourselves, we, of course, focus on those who have, in our opinion, done better than us. Social media makes this comparison process available 24/7. We can't even hide in the safety of our own homes, deep inside the womb of a hot bubble bath, without unfair comparisons.  I know my life will change again, like a constantly evolving landscape, being built up and eroding at the same time. How can I compare my life to anyone's when I can't even sit stil...

She's too good to be true I've said it most of my life and when she walked away from me I really knew it was true Starting from the top she has brains and she uses them she loves God more than anything else She's the kindest creature I've ever known brightening the lives of those she touches entering their hearts and minds as she has entered mine She wants to do what's right even if it means taking on a fight is willing to work through hard stuff for those she loves She loves harder than anyone I've ever seen won't give up, won't give in for anything she's tender, but she's strong stronger than anything I know The rest is too easy but she leaves me hurting just by being just by looking my way or looking away Her eyes are like perfectly-cut diamonds her face is lovely her smile brighter than the sun She may be the sexiest woman I've known her body is lithe, sleek, t...