Drastic actions
It's time for drastic actions. If I need to get over a girl, what's the best way? What's the fastest, surest way? Whatever that is, I have to find it. Now. I've labored under many illusions over the years, especially in love. Maybe it's just dumb luck, or maybe it's me. After decades of heartache, I'm pretty sure it's just me. I don't know how to love, and that has to change. What's wrong cannot be made right. What's done is done. But, I have the distinct advantage of being able to start again. Someday. Not today. Today I'm still fucked up over someone. In order to start again someday, I have to get over her. The way I loved is not the way I will love. I've pulled back in horrifying ways. I don't resemble myself anymore, and that's frightening. It's what I have to live with; I'm the guy who put his hand in the chipper and lost it. I'm the guy who gambled everything he had and some things he didn't....