my careless contagion

I don't know the time, but I know it's the killing hour it's the time of night when she comes and slays me in my bed again My teeth are clenched as her body moves against mine my hands speak for me my pleading, prying cause She sighs, exhales, turns toward me my eyes are shut because I know if I open them she won't be there Her top leg reaches over mine and draws me closer her arm goes under mine and fingers dig into my back She presses her body on mine her lips search my face, my neck, my chest her eyelashes flutter in the dark sleepily her body says yes Every nerve in my body is at attention every synapse is awake and alive the fabric between us evaporates with tenderness and carefulness  Her breath is hot on my face her body is warm and moist her smell is driving me wild but I am paralyzed Tears squeeze out my tightly-shut eyes frustration mounts if she were here, oh, if she were really h...

Horrified with a start, I woke it was so early in the morning but I was wide awake You were running through my dreams again and I had no defense but this time was different a voice made me sit up in bed It was that precise moment when everything coalesced when it all made sense when I was left with no more questions That voice told me I would always love you no way around it no end in sight I wish I could stop it would make this easier it would make not having you not nearly as bad But I love you hopelessly, dreadfully stupidly, more powerfully than any love I've known It seems so cruel to love someone so much and they are so far away always out of reach My words drop to the floor nowhere to go my thoughts run out the door to you but always return I'm happy, though because I know I love you and I always will no one compares No one can take my love away not even me, it seems so co...