my careless contagion

She's late but I know she's coming I cower, my breathing labored She has tears in her eyes but I know she intends to do what she intends to do This is it the moment I've been dreading she cries but there's murder in her eyes I love her but she will slay me I will cease to exist when she betrays me It is acceptable this sacrifice of love for the greater good for the love of many I will perish but she will walk away hurting, broken, bleeding forever scarred With my blood dripping from her hands and streaming across the floor she leaves me for the last time I am silent now in no pain my eyes focused on nothing my heart still My lover, my friend, my perfect to you there's nothing left to be said because I now know this is the end.

I carry this darkness like a cloak I carry this madness, this violence in my clenched fists What I am is what I've always been what I'll always be -- singular and strange I've tried to be normal I've tried to belong I sat in your crowds, played along But this blackness defines me this mean midnight I inhabit speaks for me I am hidden in it -- total, blinding sold out to it swallowed by it Absolute and utter darkness -- it is a perfect completeness I've bled more than I've said no one knows the untold, the shifting shadows that make up my bleeding out my breathing in and bleeding out again Alone I wait for my eclipse to fade to sunlight but time has stopped and my recovery with it Can you feel me here? please silence my screams silence my pain and this heart that's had enough Stamp me out, dear God there is nothing here worth saving just burning embers of a life nearly extinguished and barely li...