For the second time
I don't know whether to count myself lucky or consider myself cursed after having lost such an amazing woman for the second time in my life. Most people don't get a second chance, so I suppose I should consider myself lucky. I don't feel very lucky. The sting of the first time's rejection propelled me into the worst relationship of my life. I have to be careful that the same thing doesn't happen again. It would be a tragedy I cannot afford at this point in my life. I've learned a few things about myself after being (seemingly) rejected by the same woman twice. We all have a script we use to get through life. If our script never changes, we tend to make the same mistakes repeatedly, regardless of the characters or scenery. That's why we choose the same types of people to populate our lives. Even though the faces and names change, the results are the same. I've learned that my script is deeply flawed and that it's extremely hard to change...