Ruined
I lost a woman who meant more to me than anyone I've ever known. She ruined me, unfortunately. For all time. The rest of my life. How does it feel, sir, to be so ruined? To be completely, utterly ruined? To realize that you could never in your life have something so great as what you had with her for a brief moment of your life? Well, it feels bad. Does it make you want to give up? Does it make you want to hurt yourself, hurt her, hurt anyone? Does it make you want to die? I feel grateful for what I had because it was a rare gift that I never expected. I know I can't have her back, but that doesn't negate the beauty of what happened between us. It doesn't take any of it away. It's okay for me to feel sad because I lost something of great worth. My sadness just means I miss her and what we had. There's sadness because she's not mine. There's also sadness for the next woman I'm with. She will never have me completely becaus...