my careless contagion

She's late but I know she's coming I cower, my breathing labored She has tears in her eyes but I know she intends to do what she intends to do This is it the moment I've been dreading she cries but there's murder in her eyes I love her but she will slay me I will cease to exist when she betrays me It is acceptable this sacrifice of love for the greater good for the love of many I will perish but she will walk away hurting, broken, bleeding forever scarred With my blood dripping from her hands and streaming across the floor she leaves me for the last time I am silent now in no pain my eyes focused on nothing my heart still My lover, my friend, my perfect to you there's nothing left to be said because I now know this is the end.

Eat, sleep, breathe and keep doing the same Eat, sleep, breathe until you remember your name and all the things that used to matter There's something familiar in this pain it's my heart giving up rolling over and dying every day is the same tragedy What makes it beat what makes it care what makes it continue without a reason? It's the whisper of something on the wind in the trees beyond my reach It's hope that this won't last forever it's believing  that I'm nearly there Dear God, remember my frame I am but dust here for a moment and never again I keep hoping I keep waiting I keep repeating what I have to repeat Up comes the sun and on goes my facade another day another lesson in heartbreak.